Just in another split seconds of sadden moment after losing Ontot, same tragic moment peeped on my window of life again. Dreadfully losing makes it hard for me to take to believe it.. After losing Ontot few days ago, my 2 weeks owned Cik Kitty@Tobby leaving me in tears to rest in peace.. sad..sad...sad...
As usually I woke up in the morning and first thing I did since Cik Kitty living with me was boiled the water for Cik Kitty's milk. And clean up Robyn's litter box, refill her food and fresh water, making milk for Cik Kitty and then just I will go have shower and getting myself ready for work.
Like usual, this morning when I am done with my shower, Robyn and I get into my room to meet to hug Cik Kitty. This is the awaiting moment for Robyn to meet with Cik Kitty. ( I've saperated Cik Kitty's bed from Robyn because he is too small, to get very much together or sleep with Robyn or she will bully Cik Kitty oh so dearly)..
This morning (Friday 28 March 2008), when I entered into the room, there was no sound of Cik Kitty like he typically meowing when he sees anyone. And he was just laying in his box although Robyn scratching asked him to get up, he had no respond for that.. I just ignore that weird habit for thinking he just needs more sleep. When I am done dressed up, still they both not into the usually act of fighting and playing.. And this time I get a little worry, not even hunched of anything, I took a look he is still keep diam, not moving at all..
I took him out an and the sadness started when I put Cik Kitty on my palm just to see him opened his mouth but with no sound, and painfully shuddered back his head once in a while. This really a heartbreaking moment for me. He respons sometimes when Robyn licks his head and legs. I feed him a drop or two of milk to ease his throat, at least. But nothing promising to tell me Cik Kitty is ok.. Now the bad feeling is coming to tell me he is not going to be ok.. I managed to grab my camera and snap some pics of him (just in case I got no chance to see him again..sad..sad..sad..) and film that unbearable hurting moment... aarghhh ., it is just painful but I would like to put it up here as an honour for him, and the short moment I had with him..
I was in a mid of thinking to bring him to the VET on a way to work, when my collegue called and tell we are going to have an urgent meeting in about less than an hour. Darn! Clueless! I just told my colegue that Cik Kitty is not well and I will be late for a meeting, and she was like, "what? semalam baru lepas main dengan dia before we off from the office? what happened?" at that point I just vaguely saying I have no idea at all.
Now I really need to rush to work and bring him to the VET after the meeting. It is going to be late for Cik Kitty but thats the bestest I can do at this hectic point.
I reached at work when the meeting is already started. I securely put Cik Kitty near the window and open a little bit of the window to give some air and sun shine for him. This time he was still weak but tried to meow like trying to tell something but he was sooo hopelessly open up his mouth... arghh..so upsetting.... I can't wait and rushed to a meeting room..,at this panicking situation I was so lost and got into different meeting room for twice..!! dammit..macamane boleh salah bilik ni!
I can hardly concentrate on a meeting. What was on earth that ugly old lady keeps babling about??? Is she going mad or what? Now my mind is just running over Cik Kitty. I just wished the meeting is over immediately.
The meeting is over and I rushed upstairs to my room to quickly check on Cik Kitty. And my other collegue asked what went wrong with my little Tobby (Cik Kitty), that I can't answer.
It is also an absolute heartbreaking moment for my collegues to see Cik Kitty so weak and painful. They are so used to have Cik Kitty aound in the office at my room, playing and meowing asked for his milk. It is kindda unbeliveable when they look at Cik Kitty helplessly laying unmoving, mute and weak. We never know what went wrong to him, when just yesterday he was so joyful and cheerful playing around in our office and they got to play with him before going off. I still remember for the first time yesterday one of my colleagues hug Cik Kitty and put him at my desk just for him pee on it.. They were so sad, terribly sad..
And at home yesterday night, Cik Kitty was ok like usual and playing with Robyn while I watch TV, and I remember the last time I feed him, the real feeding was last night when American Idol was playing on TV, and I sent him to bed after that. He was ok still at that moment. That's really a heartbreaking to remember back again the moment like that.
Will continue more about him in another posting...... Rinduuuu sangat dia...
As usually I woke up in the morning and first thing I did since Cik Kitty living with me was boiled the water for Cik Kitty's milk. And clean up Robyn's litter box, refill her food and fresh water, making milk for Cik Kitty and then just I will go have shower and getting myself ready for work.
Like usual, this morning when I am done with my shower, Robyn and I get into my room to meet to hug Cik Kitty. This is the awaiting moment for Robyn to meet with Cik Kitty. ( I've saperated Cik Kitty's bed from Robyn because he is too small, to get very much together or sleep with Robyn or she will bully Cik Kitty oh so dearly)..
This morning (Friday 28 March 2008), when I entered into the room, there was no sound of Cik Kitty like he typically meowing when he sees anyone. And he was just laying in his box although Robyn scratching asked him to get up, he had no respond for that.. I just ignore that weird habit for thinking he just needs more sleep. When I am done dressed up, still they both not into the usually act of fighting and playing.. And this time I get a little worry, not even hunched of anything, I took a look he is still keep diam, not moving at all..
I took him out an and the sadness started when I put Cik Kitty on my palm just to see him opened his mouth but with no sound, and painfully shuddered back his head once in a while. This really a heartbreaking moment for me. He respons sometimes when Robyn licks his head and legs. I feed him a drop or two of milk to ease his throat, at least. But nothing promising to tell me Cik Kitty is ok.. Now the bad feeling is coming to tell me he is not going to be ok.. I managed to grab my camera and snap some pics of him (just in case I got no chance to see him again..sad..sad..sad..) and film that unbearable hurting moment... aarghhh ., it is just painful but I would like to put it up here as an honour for him, and the short moment I had with him..
I was in a mid of thinking to bring him to the VET on a way to work, when my collegue called and tell we are going to have an urgent meeting in about less than an hour. Darn! Clueless! I just told my colegue that Cik Kitty is not well and I will be late for a meeting, and she was like, "what? semalam baru lepas main dengan dia before we off from the office? what happened?" at that point I just vaguely saying I have no idea at all.
Now I really need to rush to work and bring him to the VET after the meeting. It is going to be late for Cik Kitty but thats the bestest I can do at this hectic point.
I reached at work when the meeting is already started. I securely put Cik Kitty near the window and open a little bit of the window to give some air and sun shine for him. This time he was still weak but tried to meow like trying to tell something but he was sooo hopelessly open up his mouth... arghh..so upsetting.... I can't wait and rushed to a meeting room..,at this panicking situation I was so lost and got into different meeting room for twice..!! dammit..macamane boleh salah bilik ni!
I can hardly concentrate on a meeting. What was on earth that ugly old lady keeps babling about??? Is she going mad or what? Now my mind is just running over Cik Kitty. I just wished the meeting is over immediately.
The meeting is over and I rushed upstairs to my room to quickly check on Cik Kitty. And my other collegue asked what went wrong with my little Tobby (Cik Kitty), that I can't answer.
It is also an absolute heartbreaking moment for my collegues to see Cik Kitty so weak and painful. They are so used to have Cik Kitty aound in the office at my room, playing and meowing asked for his milk. It is kindda unbeliveable when they look at Cik Kitty helplessly laying unmoving, mute and weak. We never know what went wrong to him, when just yesterday he was so joyful and cheerful playing around in our office and they got to play with him before going off. I still remember for the first time yesterday one of my colleagues hug Cik Kitty and put him at my desk just for him pee on it.. They were so sad, terribly sad..
And at home yesterday night, Cik Kitty was ok like usual and playing with Robyn while I watch TV, and I remember the last time I feed him, the real feeding was last night when American Idol was playing on TV, and I sent him to bed after that. He was ok still at that moment. That's really a heartbreaking to remember back again the moment like that.
Will continue more about him in another posting...... Rinduuuu sangat dia...
