Quote Of The Day

"It Is Possible To Fail In Many Ways, While To Succeed Is Possible Only In One Way, However The Only Key To Failure Is Trying To Please Everybody"

This may give several interpretations in life, as well as may possibly leads to many situation we can liberally just imagine about.

I am not going to say anything about failure, not only it is a one negative element I try to avoid (even if only to say it)., but I think the root cause of that failure is the central thinking right now and then to bring up.

Living as an ordinary human being, we always be in a brimful of dreams, lavishing generated by ideas, yearnings and needs until sometimes we can't even distinguish the real needs and desires by itselves. How shame when this would lead to the failure you never dreamed of before... And at this point of time you need to recall where that EGO you lay into yourself that dramatically crush off all your desires.. tragic right!!

And the word GREEDY must always be responsive to you (To Whom It May Concern)!
Can it be wise to be a little bit modest and humble when facing with real life because it is not us to rule and own this world.

Timeline

suppose our timeline to submit our work is tomorrow, but sad to be true when the unManaged Manager suddenly sent a message early this morning asked us to submit our work today with a reason she will be able to make a review and we will do the amendments later once she done with the review chapter by chapter... In another words, serves her with an ample time (frame) and leave poor us with just a tiny bit out of that particular timeframe...
But this kind of tragedy could be happened in a situation when the Manager never come out with a proper timeline for everyone to stick up to, and take the project given as a stage to glamouring their own butt and to just cheaply win Top Management's asses...
More tragicaly to be truth the unManaged Manager is actually not a fitting human to fit in the position when there are a way much better person than her who really in a field out there who deserves it most... In fact she even has no background of that field, because of the ass licking just she won the position... Manusia Jijik!!

Well, apparently many bad things she has done to us and to the rest., and many adversity situation greatly going on in here... But who are we to object or at least to tell out of it?? No one will listen to us... Poor us....

Dearly Ontot.,Farewell.,Long GoodByes..

March 24 2008, Monday... I got to the office early today, at 8:15AM.. After get things done, from login to Workmate to settle 'Si Kenit' in its secret place and make my own coffe.
Suddenly I remember about my darling Ontot. The weird feeling came inside me, never have this kind of feeling., felt so missing about Ontot ever since last Saturday. "weird feeling"..
Well thinking about Ontot and it is my unofficial routine to feed the cats around this office, especially Ontot. and I could say all these cats are belong to this place and no such as stray cats for them. For how many generation of them has resided here including Ontot. There is a special story about Ontot, will let you know bout it later. So this morning I went down in intention to feed Ontot and others. But only Syibu Kelabu was there. Where are others? Where is Ontot? But never mind Syibu Kelabu (I said),just eat your breakfast, I want to go find Ontot. This is much bizzare when she can't smell of me from far like she usually does, and she is always the first to wait for me for food or anything.

Tired of calling Ontot and looking around for her, I let Syibu Kelabu finish her breakfast and I wanted to go upstairs to my office. That is when my heart stopped for seconds when the security guard telling me Ontot found dead upstairs, in front of the door of my office where she used to wait for me or peep on me. She could see me and steal a look through the glass door if I go in and out of my room.
Ohh., I just devastatingly couldn't say of anything when hear this bitter sad., sad news about my dear Ontot. Obviously people know how close I am with all these cats particularly with Ontot. People knows how smart and friendly Ontot was to everyone who passes her by, and everyone in the office knows how close Ontot and me like we belong to each other.

I look after her since she was small, when I found her so scrawny, half dead and so weak laying at the edge of the stairs in my office, just an inch of her body to fall down off the stairs.. Too pity to look at her like that, I took her and my first feed her was a slice of Gardenia Peach and Raisin loaf, and that was when I started being her parent... since then..
But today is like disaster to know Ontot is dead and gone FOREVER and I will never see her again!! :{ I just can hardly to believe it... Arrghhhh.. SADNESS..SADNESS....SADNESS...

I don't know how am I going to handle it, coming to the office and see Ontot is not here anymore, facing the fact that I can't intermingle with her again..That is the hardest part right now for me to take... Ouuuhhh!!
Last Friday, actually was the last time and the longest goodbye me and Ontot.. Last Friday when I went down to feed her and others, it was sad to see her distortedly losing balance walking towards me., and just I found her one back leg is swollen..

She even didn't allow me to touch her leg and made me worry to think what had happened to her? My collegue said it is normal if one cat tergeliat or something and they will heal naturally.. it made me wonder actually... would it be healed by itself?
And you know what., I was thinking to bring her to the VET after office but what happened after office that Friday?
It was pouring rain, heavy raining and 'Si Kenit' buat hal., cried out loud and couldn't stay put inside his box., that is one thing., and the other was, my fiance already planned out to go to the fishing pond to fish prawns and lobster.. And when it comes about pancing udang, usually there is no compromise, so I definitely know he will never tolerate with me if it comes about pancing udang or we will be talking in silence for few days... So... I just had to forget about bring Ontot to the Vet.. (and now I feel so guilty to myself for that)... forgive me Ontot.... :(

And I just realized how mengada-ngada she was with me., asking me to bring her inside my room, and I did a few time, after office hour if I stayed back and when everyone has gone back. Definitely it would be hard to erase the memory with her...and will definitely forever with me...
Adduuhhhhh.... how can this happen to me??.. Losing ones we love is not an easy to tolerate with..
Just hope I could meet her in any form of meeting, even if it could be only in my mind's eye because right now I am dreadfully missing Ontot...

UnManaged Manager

As the title giving a meaning of relation to workplace which transmit all elements from Human Resource, Management, Workplace Communication, and most importantly a Leadership Skill...that includes everything, most of everything..

Coming to the point of me and my other collegues being infuriated by our Project Manager (actually 2nd Boss) who is obviously lack of management skill, won't be considered as a respectful leader to lead a major/huge project but yet tend to be the most powerful leader who think can rule the world of her own. For us that 'her' is just a piece of her own bullshit! (sorry for that dunk word).

I am a very passionate employee which seriousness and well manage work flow is the key and an imperative element to look forward as to achive of course to deliver a good quality product. Most importantly my own good satisfaction towards my own work, that really a matter to me. Never count of the workload, but how the workflow is proficiently going to lead us to achive to some sort of professionalisme in work quality..
Not in a mood to say more about this kelam kabut Project Management, in a time I am mourning of Ontot loses., more of feeling sad than anger...

NO ONE...of anything....

My flavour of the month... This song by the great talented Alicia Keys, potrays many different things I am unable to enlightening it well enough in here..

Just feed you eyes and ears.....enjoy!

London Here We Come!

This entry is supposed to compliment the 'my upmost' can't really wait trip, I mean ever in my whole life. Never will I beleive how excited I am for this trip, I generously put it as same as everyone else.

As we plan out almost every detail in our lives, so do I with this London trip. The booking has been made earlier on September at MATTA fair.. When it has been booked just I realised whether can I make it or not, but after a long persuation with my mom, and just then she letting me go.
And because of that I am not prepared everything earlier, just the basic needs. Well, we will be flying by Emirates, i convinced they are one of the best airlines in the world.
Wooohoooo!! Just can't wait to touch down at Land'on.!!
London, here we come!!!

Yellow LedBetter Makes Me Feel Better

It has been mspea YM status lately.

I remember when I put on this YM status "Yellow LedBetter Makes Me Feel Better" for the whole while I was in a very dippressing moment both work and own life..

"Yellow LedBetter" is one of made famous song of Pearl Jam, breathtakingly up by the raucous voice of Eddie Vadder..hehe... Will try put up the song in here (when i got more ample time doing it).. here is a lil' wording out of it...

Unsealed on a porch a letter sat.

Then you said, "I wanna leave it again."

Once I saw her on a beach of weathered sand.

And on the sand I wanna leave it again. Yeah.

On a weekend I wanna wish it all away, yeah.

And they called and I said that "I want what I said"

and then I call outagain.

And the reason oughta' leave her calm, I know.

I said "I know what I waited not a box or the bag."

Sometimes we need a little time of our own even when others are trying to get into one of it, just we know how much ourselves need to be alone with us, to be consoled, to be loved and to be shared everything of our owned. Only we know of ourselves better than others claimed they do..