WishList

I wish I was a neutron bomb for once I could go off

I wish I was a sacrifice but somehow still lived on

I wish I was a sentimental ornament you hung on The Christmas tree

I wish I was the star that went on top

I wish I was the evidence I wish I was the grounds

For 50 million hands upraised and open toward the sky

I wish I was a sailor with someone who waited for me

I wish I was as fortunate as fortunate as me

I wish I was a messenger and all the news was good

I wish I was the full moon shining off a Camaro's hood

I wish I was an alien at home behind the sun

I wish I was the souvenir you kept your house key on

I wish I was the pedal brake that you depended on

I wish I was the verb 'to trust' and never let you down

I wish I was a radio song, the one that you turned up

I wish... I wish...

When again can I think to smash my head off like this when all wishlists won't turn true??

I just came back from a sick call yesterday. A damn whole day its completed a laziness character this human beared in 28 years. Never will I feel better, to get done what I wish for, all inside this concrete of mind. This human has no further strength to keep carry on with her domestic inbound and outbound life.

Human perfectly plan out every single point, whether can it be fullfilled and accomplished up to individual contentment, never will I know, till the lucky ones go home with winning guts, leaving this fuzzy weak ones rest in obscurity world ones only know.

Human can do as much wishlist as they wish to make, but only if they know what is true, human won't have a long complicated wishlist to make it true.

I just wish I could have a perfect wedding runs perfectly in my way... wish..wish...

Half Of Big Coming...

Feeling toink!toink!toink! when half of a big day is coming., real soon.... next week (August 18 2007, Saturday).. You know what I mean, butterflies in a stomach! Pheww.. It is my engagement.
Feeling terrify and obviously nervous. Takut nyee.. Clearly me never planned anything like this will happen at this soon.
Back in an early July (baru lepas) that Mr. Right purposed and popep the question to set a date for our wedding. I had no idea when was on earth he made a thinking and came out with a date for our angagement. Unpredictable betul pakcik ni! I was so stunned, surprised, feeling shocked, but of course la it gets me in a high spirit kan.. suke le.! I thought he was gone crazy with the unexpected inspiration? Humm... As I never flirt with anyone or attracted to any hunks if that is the reason he suddenly asked me to marry him?? I mean in a real soon.? hehehe.. Well, precisely it is 4 years of our relationship and why wait another years to get marry? sedapkan hati..
With no preparations AT ALL, where should we begin? I mean me and him. Thanks God my mom help me put things in order, meanwhile for him, many more things to do.. Sempat ke ni... takutnyee..
We will go and buy something for his 'hantaran' on a way back from work this evening, as 'hantaran' is one of the 'must have' in Malays wedding tradition / culture, where the groom and his family must bring somethings like i.e. clothes, cookies/cakes, a pair of shoes (or anythings) along with the engagement ring to the bride house on that engagement ceremony. So they will exchange these stuffs or hantaran.. adil la kan.. that sounds fair isn't it?

Many things to prepare that gets me headache actually..Ooouch!! But I am telling myself, there is nothing to worry. Stand kewl' and do what I supposed to do, rite?

~~if only i could lay like this -
Lay down your arms and surrender to me. Lay down your arms and love me peacefully. Yea. -PJ Eddie Vedder~~